Today, I’m sharing with you the 6-month transformation from my move to Spain and the miraculous shifts in the body and heart.
As I went through the exit plan from America, it took 3 months to truly commit to leave, put the call out to the Universe (aka friends & vision), pack up my life, and get the visa. The toughest part was deciding not to renew my lease (in a place I had just moved in 9 month prior, ironically signed a 9 month lease (yay, wise mind!)). This was before I even had the visa in hand, found a new place to live or, had a clear plan.
Anyone that knows me knows I’m a planner. (You know that gal that produced many photos shoots). I love setting a timeline and hitting targets and seeing the creative flow come to fruition. This time, Nikita and I took a massive leap of trust.
They say get clear, shift your energy, your focus, your intention, and it’ll all fall into place. Well, it did.
Arriving in Ibiza, I was filled with a lot of old emotions. Fear was predominant. I just couldn’t quite get settled for the first month. Even though my living situation was perfect, I still had a lot of digging, releasing, curiosities to satisfy, and rebuilding to do.
It became very clear to me that I came to Spain to soften my broken heart. Not the, “he hurt me,” kind, but the deep disappointment of not living out the dreams of leading the international life I had dreamed of from a very young age.
See, my family raised me in England, we had a very international life up until my 20’s. As life got more complicated and as my health became a major focus for over 20 years, I lost the vision of living as a global citizen. I fell out of contact with my nomadic spirit.
I remember heading to London at 15, my mum and I were going back to where I learned to ride horses in the Cotswolds. We were driving on the M-30 (on the other side of the road) and we started talking about my career. She had hopes for me to work in the UN, so I could continue continent hopping. That intimidated me.
I went in a very different direction. Film career, self employed, and a nomad.
Over the years, my career evolved from film producer, to sales and marketing expert, to coach, to stylist, now transformational style coach.
The most massive shift I felt from living in Spain is I found joy in the flow of each day. And when I’m not, I stop all things and realign. This looks like: starting my day over, sometimes changing my outfit, movement, mediation, writing, clean food, and positive connections.
While re-educating myself on my daily flow. Yes, I can sleep till 9am or 10am, and I’m giving myself space from late night chatting with sisters all over the globe. I’ve found new space for positive connections with communities globally and the women who are creating their soul style.
My heart can connect more openly with people as I’m no longer strapped with the trauma of the health journey. I’m no longer a victim to my body and situations, I no longer feel like I can’t fulfill my dreams.
I am still committed to healing my physical body and continually learning new ways to do it outside of just western medicine.
This is #LOVERECOVERY. It’s about bringing your heart forward in the most pure, elegant, open place. The amazing thing you learn is boundaries are absolutely necessary to keep your heart open.
Setting new boundaries is up to you and your desires. It’s 100% about what feels good to you.
It may be saying no to many things that you have FOMO about, but know that you don’t have the energy for. You may have to walk out on a date. You may have a hard conversation with someone about how your dynamic is playing out. But beauty, boundaries will change your game. It’s all about knowing how you feel and creating a new set point for yourself.
As I began to find my new rhythm, beach walks with Nikita, women’s circle on Sundays, hike’s into the depths of the forest on the cliff’s of the sea (it’s vast and beautiful here), I found more and more peace inside myself. I found the slow roads to take in the scenery and fresh air, leaving behind traffic jams filled with tourists and construction.
These are all small things and daily habits. Stepping into feeling okay with where I’m at in life, more joy has seeped into my body.
You’re here to experience the fullest most beautiful adventure you can dream of. Step into your rhythm, and set the tone on your terms. Sounds selfish, but it’s the most unselfish way to exist, because you are becoming solely responsible for yourself.
I’ve gotten really good at letting go of resistance and pivoting to a new focus that was more pleasurable. That thing or obstacle that had my panties in a twist would naturally resolve itself, or I realized that I needed to shift my perspective.
That’s all it takes, look at life through a new lens.
Be grateful for what you have. No one can tell you what you need. It’s your job to fulfill your own desires and then show up to serve yourself and naturally you will serve the world.
Easier said than done. So often, my anger about unfulfilled dreams would slap me in the face. I would fall down a dark hole and struggle to climb back into a good feeling place.
Honestly, I don’t think I ever really felt that “good feeling place” living in America. Yes, of course, there were moments, but there was always this voice saying, “It’s time to go.”
I used to think I was running away from something, but now I know I was always walking towards the life I always envisioned for myself that I had as a young woman.
Each day, I embrace my new life. Amazing, beautiful people have shown up in my world. Building new community is a skill my parents taught me at a young age, but it still doesn’t dissipate the anxiety of meeting new people.
It’s here, I witnessed how much I was afraid of the engagement of others. I was actually afraid of people, of YOU. There still was a sinking feeling that I was not “GOOD ENOUGH” to lead, to build, to support, to grow, to have all that my heart desires.
I am a true cancerian looking for her home, but I no longer feel homeless. I’m here with you sitting in this chair writing this love note to you with my hearts desires and holding a light to yours.
There are no words that can explain the fulfillment and satisfaction I feel each day I wake and go to sleep. It’s 100% a sensory experience. And when it’s off, I use my Somatic Dressing Method™ to track to where I need to shift my set point.
It’s pretty easy. For me, I look for flow of activity, engagement, and creativity. I forget about FOMO. I make choices in the moment of inspiration. I move towards joy and away from pain. I seek conscious positive connection. I look for fun and laughter.
I thought people were joking when they said how pleasurable and joy filled their life is.
So, here’s to living out your dreams and playing the game of love. Isn’t that what it’s all about anyways?
Hit reply and tell me what your big dreams are right now!
So much love and admiration,
P.S. Raise your hand if this is you:
️You crave freedom - with your time and your finances.
️You only use natural nutritionals, skin care, and makeup.
️The idea of working when you want from wherever you want sounds like a dream come true. (How about poolside with a glass of green juice?)
️The thought of linking arms with powerhouse women who coach each other to new heights excites your heart.
We’re growing a wellness team. If you’re interested in learning how to build your own beauty and lifestyle brand with an incredible sisterhood, let’s chat. This month, I’m helping my sisters accomplish their goals. Wanna join us? Email me and we’ll connect.